Make a Wish?

it's kinda 'routine' for a birthday girl/boy to make a wish on his/her birthday...
n iv always been doubting wat's the rationale behind and if it really works...

a fren had just given me a hand-made 'fairy' which is allegedly having the power to grant my wish if i believe wif all my might...
the question is, should i still believe in fairy tale at this age n if i do, how hard should i believe?

there's always some despair behind every wish, like it or not...
we can never get all what we want, and through this we learn to appreciate...
we wish, our wishes not granted, we're disappointed, then we wish again, only to find that we can never get close to what we want...

you may see me as a greedy person judging from the above statement, but somehow there's always 'something' missing when my wish is 'seemingly' granted... there is always some discrepancy between what we expect and what happens for real... im not good in describing feelings but its like 2 parallel lines that will never meet for eternity.

and thus, i stop making wish, stop longing for things to happen, stop making promises, and stop testifying others' promises, sounds pathetic huh... because if i don't, then there will not be disappointment...

well, some people believe fervently in 'law of attraction', and i do trust it 2 some extent but personally it's quite next to impossible to implement this in my life... im afraid of losing control should things not going the way i 'attracted to', and eventually i may lose faith of myself...

perhaps it's time for me to believe in things that iv lost my faith in long time ago...
and my little fairy, would u like to lend me ur helping hands when i need u?

*there can be miracles, when u believe (really?)*
btw,
*祝我生日快乐*