Thursday, December 31, 2009

it's 2010!!!

well, there's actually nothing to exclaim about as in the title above (just could not think of any better punctuation mark)...

it's 25 minutes past year 2009 and i have been sitting in front of my laptop for 2 hours doing literally nothing. no outing, no counting down and no any form of celebration. perhaps this is a more comfortable way of welcoming the new year instead of counting down with the crowd that we don't know, who will indeed add more emptiness to the already empty festival itself, LOL...

few hours ago i was still in tanjung karang (it's located near kuala selangor n it's the place that i will b in for the next 2 months doing my medicine n society posting). people said it's a honey-moon posting but i had not cultivated any interest in this posting YET, but i hope that i'l b enjoying it for the next 6 weeks.

being there for almost 1 week, frankly speaking i have nothing much 2 complain about the life there except boring lectures that could really kill. it's one of those rare times in my life as a medical student where i can b a couch potato n sleep (n of course eat) without any guilt. it's like a vacation in those countryside chalets (well, girls' rooms are air-conditioned, poor boys) where u can really sit back n relax.

back to our new year topic...
should i have at least some new year resolutions?
my ans: no after realising that i had none of my resolutions fulfilled last year.
thus my conclusion for this yr: the best resolution is to have no resolution at all since we don't know what is coming after us in life (right?). but hopefully il b a better me or at least not becoming worse (kinda abstract huh).

*happy (possible? i doubt) new year*

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Tenji buffet @ Soho

(p/s: this is supposed to b posted last week)

well, it's the moment that everyone in our posting has been waiting for...
yup, it's the first day of JKM posting for us after 3 successive postings of non-stop clerking patients and 'warding'. bye bye to white coat and wards for 2 months.

the last lecture ended at ard 1pm and we promptly started our journey to mont kiara, a place that i had never been b4 and we were all stunned by the magnificent view of the buildings there. an ideal place to live in if u have enough asset.

here we go...

My 'main course' of the day:
seafood (i grabbed lots of crabs in it, huhu) bottomed with miso soup (my 'must have' for japanese meal)
















our '1st round' (only half of it is shown here):
















Japanese cheesecake(s)



















some kind of muesli i guess and....

they tasted nice!!














scallops topped with peanut butter

(what a weird combination and they tasted as weird as they looked)



















i created my own 'fundae'


















Haegen-daez green-tea n strawberry ice-cream

~simply
irresistable~














ketam o ketam


















Japanese snail















fresh (aka uncooked) oyster

(i held my breath to finish it, kinda disgusting)


















finally, merry xmas!!!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

God i need Your blessings...

2 more days... then that's it...
every1 else is going back for holidays but im stil here with my fellow posting-mates, yet 2 sit for the short case examination next wk...

God, i really need ur blessings,
may i not getting tough examiners,
may the patients cooperate,
may i not panicked,
may i finish everything in time,
and may everything goes smooth...

pls, pls, pls....
~amitabha~

*exhausted*

~happy (belated) birthday~

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

feMALE and woMAN

Woman has Man in it;

Mrs. has Mr . in it;

Female has Male in it;

She has He in it;

Madam has Adam in it;

Okay, Okay, it all makes sense now...

I never looked at it this way before:

Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?

MEN tal illness

MEN strual cramps

MEN tal breakdown

MEN opause

GUY necologist

AND ...

When we have REAL trouble, it's a HISterectomy.

21st Century FACTS

Our communication - Wireless

Our phones - Cordless

Our cooking - Fireless

Our food - Fatless

Our Sweets - Sugarless

Our labor - Effortless

Our relations - Fruitless

Our attitude - Careless

Our feelings - Heartless

Our politics - Shameless

Our education - Worthless

Our Mistakes - Countless

Our arguments - Baseless

Our youth - Jobless

Our Boss - Brainless

Our Jobs - Thankless

Our Needs - Endless

Our situation - Hopeless

Our Salaries - Less and less

bloody o bloody...

today, iv managed to draw a blood sample for coagulation profile from a patient on warfarin, FINALLY.... not 'tatooing' the patient, not causing bulging of vein, no inadequate blood sample, no needle-prick injury n with glove ON..

i know it's just a small matter for a medical student, and every medical student under the sky would manage to do so without much hassle. its definitely not a big issue but somehow i have a boost in self-esteem each time i manage to carry out a procedure. it's indeed disheartening to cause pain to the patient each time failing to do so.

well, we had been taught to learn from mistakes, but i really feel bad when each misconduct we do (sounds nicer if i call it 'experience'?) is causing pain and inflicting torment in our patients, though i know it's impossible to succeed in every procedure, even with experienced hand.

another flattering event today was that one of the patients actually called me as her 'grand-daughter' hahaha.... i could really feel her warm heart when she actually holded my hand so tightly that i felt that everything i do is worthwhile, and i shall stop complaining about the 'suffering' as a medical student, as medicine is a field that is so rewarding that u would not have the thought of quitting it if u have enough passion (of which im lack too sometimes). i know its hard but i hope that all of us could maintain the 'ignition' till the end by not giving up (although iv been so 'duo luo' for so many days, with the short case exam on next week, *a slap on my face*)..

there it came another uncle (we called him uncle with 'a special heart', as he has dextrocardia, a very rare cardiological condition), who asked me to buy some biscuits and breads for him b4 doing a physical examination. he was so glad when i 'accomplished my task' and thank us non-stop. sometimes its not about the reward u get when helping others, but the satisfaction u get at the end of the day that counts. as the saying goes, "the truth about happiness is that, it has to be given to others first, before u can finally possess it".

well, looks like i really have to stop here. have to summarize 2 cases for my logbook n to finish my um express for the coming short case.

till then, will update more about my life as a medical student.
goodnight to the planet called Earth, and good morning to myself.
+oil, +oil...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

craving for ice

omg i cant believe that i actually went to 100yen AGAIN today, just to have a bite of the snowy which i wrote in my last post.




















oops its sharon staring at me...
still waiting for my snowy 2 b served...






















milky flavored snowy topped with chocolate chips and choc syrup..
~slurrrrpp~























as iv promised: green-tea flavored snowy with red beans (sharon's favorite)


















snapped this from another corner of the counter.
look, it's even cuter than the one i caught yesterday!
i want it for my X'mas present!!!

特别分享之《低调》

嬉笑 打闹 拥抱
留下了那么多开心合照
互相取暖依靠 熬过了最低潮
一起生活 也一起埋怨过
走过最好与最糟
我在心里想的不用说明 你知道

晨昏 日夜 颠倒
这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑 没有人去打扫
感情很微妙 再多付出也好
再多关心都徒劳
爱情从来就没有固定的味道
它最后停在哪里谁知道

我的难过是如此低调
因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角
努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报
朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调 傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好
我想你一定会选择 假装不知道
只怕我自己的掩饰不够好
难到是我对我自己 不够好

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这首歌的歌词,阿管写得实在太棒了。

难过,失落,落寞等负面情绪,
留给自己,就够了;
自己感伤,就好了;
把情绪加诸于别人,是不对的;
把快乐都留给自己,是自私的。

因为这世界是现实的,
它只爱面带笑容的你,
它厌倦面容憔悴的你。

所以,
难过,低调就好。
至少,我对得起这世界;
至少,我还算是开心的。

Saturday, December 5, 2009

early Xmas dinner '09

well, went 4 a simple dinner in station 1 cafe but it turned out to be an X-mas meal as the restaurant was doing a promotion with Xmas set.

price: rm 28.90 (excluding tax, but stil affortable)

starter: mushroom soup




















drink: jasmine iced-tea (my all-time favourite)




















main course : fried chicken (could not appreciate the exact flavour) with "merry xmas" on top, with a layer of mashed potato across the middle of the chic (cool), side dishes including coleslaw and a thai-flavored pasta (kinda weird combination)
















dessert: chocolate-flavored (other options: yam,strawberry) ice-cream topped with choc syrup
















free-gift: an Xmas teddy bear (yes it's free)



















lucky draw (scratch n win): "merry christmas" meaning sorry pls cm again nx tm kakaka...


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later on, went to 100yen (a japanese-themed frachised convenient store) for some ice...
ordered a mango-flavored snow-mountain. man... the texture really nice, will definitely revisit it agian. my next target: green tea snow-mountain, yuhoo!!




















before we called it a day, took tis very cute deco in front of the store, and in front of the storekeeper. its a mercy she did not chase us out wakaka... (she should thank me for doing a free promotion for the shop)

Friday, December 4, 2009

好想。回家。

这里很好,
真的很好,
天空很蓝,
夜景很美,
吃喝玩乐,
什么都不缺。


但是,
这里不是我家,
这里的每一寸土地都很不踏实,
这里的每一面风景都好陌生,
这里的空气让人濒临窒息,
这里的一切让人日渐麻木。


我并不是想抱怨些什么,
就如我说的,这里真的很好,
就少了那么一点点...


我只想,
回家,
回到属于自己的地方。

points to ponder

也许向往自由的你,会让他人受到伤害。(飞走了,它就淹死了)













你或许和周围的人不一样,别人为了生活忙碌,你却想着怎么飞走

















伤了不表示你从此不能再飞


















你能搬得动梦想!















有捷径就别大费周章
















自由原来是另一种束缚。














惯性思维,会让人变的迟钝的一种东西。

















善待别人就是善待自己。

Thursday, December 3, 2009

特别分享之《可惜不是你》

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你
陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权利关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你
陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

可惜不是你
陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

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重新爱上这首梁静茹的旧作,心里掀了片刻...
总是有太多可惜,让许多事情与人物,到后来也许只是蓦然回首时的擦肩而过。
当时执着与坚信的一切,往往是往后某年某月某一天,自嘲当初太年少轻狂的笑料,到最后连那么一点回味的心情都省下来了。
是的,很多时候,故事还没到达终点,下一刻会发生的事情永远是未知数。

藤井树在《六弄咖啡馆》里写道:“...只是不太勇敢的我们,总让许多缘分在岁月中蹉跎... 我很庆幸的是你一直把我留在身边,但失落的是,我从来都不是你的谁...”虽然并非亲身经验,但故事书翻到最后一页时,酸酸的滋味还是不禁涌上心头。回忆就像午后响起的春雷,总让人怦然心跳;总有些人,有些事或许曾经在你心中占据一些位置,但想回到过去?已经没有勇气了,那份感动也已经销声匿迹了。到头来,回忆,就真的只是回忆。

可惜我没问过自己想要些什么,
可惜我没曾对自己感觉诚实过,
可惜我只是个胆小鬼,
可惜我只会说可惜,

可惜...
不是你...