Make a Wish?

it's kinda 'routine' for a birthday girl/boy to make a wish on his/her birthday...
n iv always been doubting wat's the rationale behind and if it really works...

a fren had just given me a hand-made 'fairy' which is allegedly having the power to grant my wish if i believe wif all my might...
the question is, should i still believe in fairy tale at this age n if i do, how hard should i believe?

there's always some despair behind every wish, like it or not...
we can never get all what we want, and through this we learn to appreciate...
we wish, our wishes not granted, we're disappointed, then we wish again, only to find that we can never get close to what we want...

you may see me as a greedy person judging from the above statement, but somehow there's always 'something' missing when my wish is 'seemingly' granted... there is always some discrepancy between what we expect and what happens for real... im not good in describing feelings but its like 2 parallel lines that will never meet for eternity.

and thus, i stop making wish, stop longing for things to happen, stop making promises, and stop testifying others' promises, sounds pathetic huh... because if i don't, then there will not be disappointment...

well, some people believe fervently in 'law of attraction', and i do trust it 2 some extent but personally it's quite next to impossible to implement this in my life... im afraid of losing control should things not going the way i 'attracted to', and eventually i may lose faith of myself...

perhaps it's time for me to believe in things that iv lost my faith in long time ago...
and my little fairy, would u like to lend me ur helping hands when i need u?

*there can be miracles, when u believe (really?)*
btw,
*祝我生日快乐*

眼泪

你从不曾发现。。

我笑中，

还有泪。。。

Anything i'm not

I will never be, I will never be tall, no
And I will never be, never ever be sure of it all
Oh, why's the world so cruel to me?
When all, all I ever wanna be is anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not, I'm not

I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know
But oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality, oh

Trouble is a friend ?

Trouble he will find you no matter where you go, oh oh
No matter if you're fast, no matter if you're slow, oh oh
The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn, oh oh
You're fine for a while but you start to lose control

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh
So don't forget as you ease on down the road

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel
And how I try to make him leave, I try
Oh oh, I try!

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Just enjoy the show ...

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop--
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show 

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah