from sharon

...tO my dEar...

...haPPy 22nd bfDay...

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...maY aLL ur dreAms c0me...

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...maY ur whIte hoRse pRince f0unD u so0n...

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...maY uR daYs b fiLLed with laughter,sunsHine,rainBow,sWeets and cAndy...

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...maY u sTay happY everyDay...

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...May u kOngxu nO mOre...

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...MaY u becOme a greaT doctor 1 daY...

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...maY aLL ur sorrOws be swePt awaY...

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...sTay preTTy alWays...

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...dun JuSt c0unt Ur yeaRs..make It counT...

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...eat more,driNk more n Play moRe...

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...sTay heaLthy too...

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...nO moRe hOmesick toO...

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...maY aLL ur worriEs go aWay...

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...A simple calculation on how long we will be friends...cOunt the starS in heaven+sand on shore multipled by the heartbeats = forever!...

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...LoVe u aLways...

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...maY u haV ntg to wHine...

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...maKe ur mOm's sacRifice n pAin 22 years aGo coUnt n wOrth it...

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...Count your life by smiles, not tears...Count your age by friends, not years....

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...May each N every passing year bring you wisdom, peace and chEer...

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...Age is not a destination. It's a journey!...maY ur j0urneY B a w0nderFul 1...

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...God bLess u aLways...

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...lasTly,haV a BlasT toDay...

-with lOve,kisseS N huGss-

PRE-22

today is (or was?) a special day.

i had my pre-birthday celebration with my coursemates in Chilie's @ mid valley.
initially i tot it would be a small group gathering with hengling (my rmmate) n sharon wif her lil sis 4 a simple dinner. a small part of me even thought that my rmmate organised this as a form of 'penebusan dosa' since she scratched my car accidentally 2 days ago lol..

but when the 2 of my housemates brought me into the restaurant n i stepped my feet inside the small lounge booked earlier, i would say that i had quite a shock when i realised the familiar faces of my posting mates (su yee, jing fen, chin sheng, xiao fung, connie, siew fen). we had some chatters before every1 settling down n started to place order.

we took a handful of pictures while waiting 4 the food to be served, with sharon being the camera woman, of which she hated being but insisted in becoming one btw. while we were syoking sendiri, another group of 'unexpected guests' appeared. they were the XY gang (albert, simon, chris, jun yong,chu chun hong). i was especially surprised to see the presence of chun hong as he would have been enjoying his dinner with his family mem in his house if not for the event 2nite. but as usual, he acted in the funniest way he has been behaving and thought that every girl on earth being his fan. well, i would say that no1 else are so 'brave' enough to say such words besides him.









thereafter, every1 was enjoying his or her meal, with occasional photo-shooting, with the most photos of mine taken (frens, forgive me for being so camera-craving 2nite). i even took photo with each of them, personally (s sharon said, 'kai xin jiu hao') hahaha sorry o... i had the smallest bday cake ever, a sophisticated green-tea cake. yum yum not a bad idea at least every1 could finish the cake..




















later on, before we left the restaurant, the triad (albert, simon, chris) handed me a gift, which was a t-shirt with the printing "READY TO LOVE".. i did not know what reaction to give indeed. seemed like they really think that im so desperate, which im not. recently i realised that frens ard me r so eagle to c me finding my 'another half'.. hey frens, u all think 2 much d... kakaka...









when i reached home, they blind-folded me and pulled me into my room. i really 'opened my eyes' to a gift that i had never received before : bedsheet with comforter n pillow case..it was a present from my fellow coursemates, and forgive me for not listing ur names one by one, but u'l indeed be remembered. i den took a few photos yg kurang senonoh with my rmmate.. rupa-rupanya jus now she excused herself to take her phone just to change my bedsheet, kinda 'creative'...













all in all, things happened today were out of my expectation to some extent. n im contented with what my frens did for me n their presence despite the coming long case n short case assessment starting next wk.. thanks again my frens.. my bday wish??? hope that all my wishes come true kakaka... (no la im not dat greedy) but cant tell here la if not tak berkesan d...

oh ya sharon posted something on facebook i find it really nice and warm so decided to post here. it reminds me of the many things that we've gone thru these 3 yrs.. thanks yea my dear hsmate+ah mui+bff:


















time really flies....
thanks for dropping by btw...

Tomyam steamboat at home

well, i should have posted this few days ago but it's until now that i steal some time to upload the photos.

we (sharon, me and our 'guest' pei yee) had a steamboat on monday for our dinner. n i helped in preparing the materials as well, kinda inbelievable!! im learning to become a 'part-time' housewife, which is still a long way to go...

here we go:
















hmm.. looks mouth-watering kan...

come take a closer view:





















3, 2, 1 go!!!

































taking pic with pei yee, our 'ma'am' of the night:

fortune-telling

yo...
i have something to write again..
just now when organising my purse, i discovered this piece of paper, which i got in a siam temple last week when i went back penang to pray, it reads as follow:

one who gets this is like a flower nearly in bloom. this time is very important as you may easily become very rich or poor, very good or very bad. whatever you do, do it thoughtfully. do not be proud of your ability or richness, but be careful, otherwise your reputation will be ruined.
in case of prosecution you have few hopes to win the case. very few people are willing to help or support you, but there are some people trying to ruin you. your next baby will be a girl. your luck for other things is generally good.

(p/s: ask whether i believe it? most parts of me say i will as its always better to believe so u'r more cautious to what you do. hope the good ones do occur, haha)

x, Y?? z... whatever

我要控制我自己，不愿让谁看见我哭泣。。。

ok... wellll... yes i admit it...
im dumb...
so?

why are there so many people out there trying 2 slice your self-esteem one by one layer, not leaving any space for you 2 at least cover up for yourself?? sometimes when you are so keen to be there just for them, they do not even bother to acknowledge your existence. n sometimes when you do not defend for yourself, people take it for granted and assume that you'r used to be playing the role of being judged and being let down.

it sounds serious and i know that im being emo, i just hope to find an exit 2 my feelings that iv been suppressing for quite a considerable period.. (note: this does not point to any1 specific, any1 reading this pls do not get 2 personalised, thanks).

i admit that im not the kind of person who have much confidence in everything but i really know my stuff well and definitely im also not the kind of person who feel inferior all the time. im jus an average person who is trying to live my life fully, for my studies, for my patients and for the people ard me that i love. i know myself well and i know that im not the meticulous person who pays attention to every single detail in my surroundings. but that is my personality... people think that im absent-minded, ignorant, couldn care less and bla bla bla... i agree and im not trying to defend myself for that, as this is a fact, a fact is always a fact no matter how u'r trying to artifact it. n sometimes i even think that those characters are making me 'special', at least i can keep ppl around me entertained. hahaha (self-hypnotising again)...

well, crapping a lot but the main issue is here. i really can get mad when ppl are trying to relate my above characters to my future career as a doctor. jus because we'r studying medicine, we'r under the magnifying glass of others, ppl will say (or think) stuff like this, "omg, i cant imagine how you'r goin to deliver a baby in future", "gosh, don't you forget ur scissors in the patient's stomach", "i definitely don want doctor like you to be my dr in future". im certainly not a perfect person and prob will commit much more mistakes in future, but at least don't relate everything i do or every single action of mine, to my future career. it's kinda exhausting, and now it had become annoying.

i admit that i dun hav sense of direction, i lose common sense at times and i tend to be oblivious to the surrounding. and sometms im so down with myself for this when relating this to my future life. will i cost patients' lives because of this? will i harm others? when can i free from this pitfall of mine? but what im trying to say is that, i put 101% effort in what i believe and definitely will strive for the best for my patients in future (hopefully). ppl who judge and penalise others today, can u ascertain that u wont do any mistake in future? just because we'r future doctors, so our mistakes bear more consequences? i dont think so... every career saves lives to some extent and pls do not think that only doctors can cost human lives.

so next time please reflect upon urself before judging others, as you never know that your words sometimes bear hole in people's heart.

oop... i gues this is the longest blog iv ever written so better stop here..

p/s: no offence to any1, its jus a random thought.

(God, i really need your strenght to lead me on this long long journey. pls bless me that at least i won cause harm or pain to the others. 'amithaba'...)

life's brief candle

To-morrow,and to-morrow,-and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out,out,brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow,a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
and then is heard of no more;it is a tale
Told by an idiot,full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.