~Big Big World~

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

FINAL countdown

I can still clearly recall the first day of I becoming a medical student, the first time of I going to the wards on the first day of clinical year, the first time of I witnessing a caesarean section, the first time of I conducting the delivery of a baby, the first time a patient said 'thank you' to me, the first time holding an autopsy knife, and sadly the first time witnessing a death. And the list goes on.

And yesterday, we came back from the 3rd PPD (personal n professional development) camp.
And now, we'r back to reality after 3 months of honey-moon like holidays.
And tomorrow, it will be the first day when we all being labeled as "final year medical students".

Frankly speaking, the PPD camp we went for the past 1 week had instilled me more fear than anticipation for the coming year(s).

It was told that the life of being a houseman will be full of sweats n tears while that of becoming a specialist will be filled with sweats, tears n blood.

I know that sometimes the fear itself does more harm than the actual thing that is being feared, but most of the time u can't help but just worrying rather than 'enjoying' the process.

I can see lots of misery n hardship in times to come, but may them be alternated with moments of joy n contentment. And let my friends n i cherish the final moments of becoming a student.

God, may I have enough strength to go through all this.
*amitabha*

“献给热爱生命的朋友”

我们不可以控制生命的长度，
但是，我们可以选择
决定生命的宽度。

我们不可以左右天气的变化，
但是，我们可以选择
改变自己的心情。

我们不可以改变自己的相貌，
但是，我们可以选择
展现自己的笑容。

我们不可以控制他人，
但是，我们可以选择
掌握自己。

虽然我们不可以预知明天的情况，
但是，我们却可以选择
好好的利用今天。

同样的，我们不可以样样都得胜，
但是，我们却可以选择
事事都尽力而为。

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以上文章是翻开好久没打开的文件夹找到的，
是中一时一位临教所给的。
好多道理，其实大家老早就已领悟，
但是，
实践永远赶不上领悟。
原来，
大家都习惯健忘，
习惯把所懂的一切，
埋藏在看不到的角落。。

"The Doctor"

Everyday when I woke up in the morning,
I had a sensation.
"Am I hungry?"
"Am I tired?"
"Am I sad"
...... ......
Then I realized,
Im just...


lonely.